Men and their willies

Ok, so I've been wanting to write this for awhile but wasn't sure if I should. I like to make sure things are what it is before I make a decision or pass any judgement. Men and their willies, through out my life I've dated and met enough of these creatures call "men" that the worst of them no longer surprises me.

Every time when I say that I might have seen it all, they surprise me. It is as if it's a direct challenge to my declaration of having seen them all. I've heard about it, but this is the first time I met a sore looser who got upset because he couldn't get what he wants.

I feel bad that you are upset, I try to make the best out of it and even made up. But hey, you just want pay back because it's my fault that you have no game. Men and their willies, if I have one I could probably relate. I've dated the worst of the worst bunch (fake engagement ring) and this just came as a surprise to me.

I thought we were all suppose to be adults considering the fact that you are 2 years shy of the big 30. But I guess I was wrong. I just thought we had a good thing going, why can't we bloody be friends ? Simply because you are butt hurt. .

The fact that we shop at the same place, go to classes in the same building, and live in the same general area (thank god we don't live in the same apartment) is just awful. If I don't have to bump into you at least once a day, fine... sulk all you want. Fact is you have decided to punish me by being mad and making things awkward.... well I guess you don't care if anyone knows. Heck I don't even know what you told your flatmate. If weird looks can paint, I am sure it's gonna be better than Picasso.

I am just mad that you blame everything on me. Imagine how I feel, knowing that all the while, you were being nice with an agenda. AND YET, I still try to make up to soften the awkwardness. There is no reasoning with someone who is being defensive and passive aggresive.

Hotshot, sorry I have to stomp your ego and let you know that not everyone is dying to sleep with you. I just thought a men of your age would be able to differentiate fantasy from reality. That friendship when down the shit hole not because of me, but because someone assume that people would want to sleep with them over a movie and got butt hurt when they say no and cannot swallow their ego and have to blame other people for it. No wonder you're single.

Roller Coasters

Roller Coasters, never like them and probably never will. My life for the past year have been filled with ups and downs. The downs were very very "downs" and the ups were "meh" at best. Uneventful would be the word I use to describe it.

There were moments when I was so depress, life felt pointless. And then there were times when I vow to make my life better. And of course there were times when I wonder if any of my hardwork is worth it at all, if quitting and simply giving up would serve me better. I am still on the roller coaster of life whether I like it or not. I may not embrace it on every loop or turn, but I do what I can and I've learn that sometimes that's more than enough.

I am grateful during moments of desperation and despair, I had good people by my side. They make time for me, listen to me, and love on me. I would not be where I am without them and I want them to know that, I am not a self made women. I never was, people who love me help me get to where I am.

I am moving to Australia in less than two weeks, and how things are going to get paid is still a mystery. I guess sometimes, you just have to close your eyes and enjoy the ride. You may not know how steep the next turn is or how high the next loop may be, but you know it's coming and unless you plan on jumping off the roller coaster and meeting dear lord jesus immediately, you don't have much of a choice.

What I want to say is, I don't think I would be able have as much optimism, joy, and even happiness without these amazing people. Roller coasters may be scary, but knowing that you're not alone on the ride makes a huge difference